i dont get online anymore.......at all............... you can blame the mother thank you Seriously i dont have any time to do anything on this any more, i have like 13 different drafts of things ranging from my first day of work to my accident to me slicing my thumb i hate my mom and her control issues.

I've finally gotten back on to finish this Post that was about 3 weeks in the making......
Considering as how the end of the School year was ohh I dont know like 4 weeks ago i decided to reflect on and remininisce about some of the things i've done ~n~ such.........First up music

5 Favorite bands this year:
SwitchFoot, Trapt, Seether, Fuel, Dashboard Confessional.

All time: ( The Clarks, Creed, Staind, Live, and of course Pearl Jam )

Bands Rediscovered this year: Live, Linkin park, Fuel, The Verve, Dave Matthews Band

Bands I missed the most: Creed, Coldplay, Pearl Jam, Our Lady Peace, Eve 6

Most irritating song: Outkast- Hey ya..........Seriously need i say more???

Most inspiring song : Staind- So Far Away......Very over-played but worth every second

Dirtiest song: (TIE) Nickelback- Figured You out........ i used to like them, now i cant take them seriously..... Foo Fighters- Darlin' Nikki.........seriously the most retarded song ever and yes i am aware it is a cover of a PrInCe song but Dave Groehl is a sellout and i hate sellouts

Most depressing song: (TIE) Shinedown 45....... this is just a really sad song and really really good too...... Pearl Jam- Last Kiss...... yes it was possible that i did not know every song by them and thanks to the keen ear of one Alex Miller i found this beautiful song, however sad it may be it is still one of the best.

Attached to me the most while running for wrestling because i was fat: (TIE )
Switchfoot- Meant to live...... i remember losing 4 pounds in one night and this song really reminds me of that night........................
Incubus- Megalomaniac...... it made no real sense but this song really got me going on the treadmill

Made me want to club my head in the most: Trapt- The Game...... too much truth.......

Song most listened to: Pearl Jam- Black..... very sad sad song....also incredibly old, being as how it was first played in 1991, i can easily say that I played this song 300 times this year.....it is just that good of a song and makes you feel good if your down..... it's like a shot of morphine.....but it makes you depressed at first so it's not......

Favorite song: ( TIE ) AFI- Silver And Cold........This song wasjust that good and i cant decide between this and that----> Smile Empty Soul- Sillhouettes........this song is more of a Promise than a song, warning to not fall into that cycle of laziness and fear, so make a promise to yourself to do better than your parents did...... even if your dad is Bill Gates or Coach Foster

Song to sum up this year: Fuel- Falls on me ........... :(


Next up occurences At school!!!....................



Most Retarded moment: (3 WAY TIE )

1. Mr. Moscato promising to give me a pass to his class 12th period so i would not get written up by the gay Study hall, then me and Chad Dilimone getting into a Chalk Sword fight and pissed him off so bad that he wrote me up and I Got and ISS........( >:O PRICK!!!!!)

2. Jumping off of the Bench in the locker-room onto a Card Board box, which was then kicked away by Jamie Wolbert and causing a sprain in my ankle seeing as how i landed tummy first on the hard tile floor from 5 feet in the air...

3. Nearly killing Ben Groth with the power-clean bar, by doing 155 in an over-head press 5 times but on the last rep, it was crooked and fell right out of my hands, and then came back to kick out my feet



Most Random moment: the story behind the name of reddawgg!!! .....................
Well we are in chemistry and it was Homecoming week because i had some kind of costume on
( i think it was Cowboy day with my Tight cowboy pants and hat................ would you believe that i could fit firmly in a size 30? =-O)anyways and Mr. Foster is no where to be found on that lab day, and Mr. Seward was our Sub, ( so needless to say we accomplished nothing).............
Bored out of my mind i am over come by the random impulse to kick the one who would become known as Reddawgg in the leg....( Kevin Neureuter ) so i kick him in the leg and this transpires:
Kevin: yo dude whatchu kick mah leg fo, mah say fone es in deh!
Danimal: Is it a cell phone or a W A L K A Y T A L K A Y?
Kevin: ?
Josh: it's a walkie talkie he uses to communicate with his brother...... "Cuckcsh Reddawgg to Barnowl Reddawgg to Barnowl do you copy???"

Honest to god that is the exact story word for word

............. needless to say that little random bit of stupidity created something truly special, it's funny how my inability to process thought can become so funny.........



Biggest Badass moment:( 2 WAY TIE )

1. Study hall with Ms. Funny..... hmmm honesty need i say more?? ok i will.... i was being a little BA to mrs. Barth by calling her Ms. Funny and i really pissed her off then i invented a kind of song for it and started singing it all the while with terkle writing referals... i got i think 7 of them that day, and i also bitched back at terkle who Said " JOSH I'VE WRITTEN YOU UP NUMEROUS TIMES AND WILL KEEP ON DOING IT UNLESS YOU STOP TALKING"
BA Josh: Yo T- Dog, why do i need to stop talking
Terkle: JOSH STOP ASKING QUESTIONS!!!
BA Josh: But asking questions is the fundamental basis of learning T-dog.....
Terkle: DOWN TO PALMER'S NOW!!!
BA Josh: ---
Terkle: AND TAKE YOUR REFERALS TOO!!!!

2. Mrs. Boehm and me kicking my locker.... well this was just after Mrs. Boehm started her Chemo, and i can not imagine having to go through with that, and some kid was running down the hall and Mrs. Boehm yelled at him, he did not stop so naturally i did not want Mrs. Boehm to have to chase him down or anything so i stopped him and pinned him up against a wall and the following discussion
Boehm: What are you doing?
Surprized Josh: im stopping this kid because he was running
Boehm: what gives you the right?
...........Here im feeling really like "WTF is your problem lady im trying to help you so i got really angry.....
Controlled Josh: uhmmm maybe the fact that he was running???
Boehm: nothing gives you that right you little thug....
Very Angry Josh: fine then ill never ever try to do anything constructive or Helpful again, in fact ill vandalize..........( here i kick my locker numerous times ) LIKE A FRIGGIN THUG!!!

Yeah i was being an asshole but so was she......jerk

Funniest Moment: Cmon i really dont even need to put this one down..... i know this one is infamous and no one shall forget it unless they are hit by a semi carrying Brett Scallion's ego,
Cmon Just guess!!!
I'll give you a Hint..............Bling Bling!!!
that's right ReDdawgg Appreciation Day or R.D.A.D. as it was more affectionately known.
it had been going on for months, Days of picking on reddawgg with out substance, we needed something to compare to, the solutoin? me and chad kumro dress up in ghetto attire and i rap to reddawgg........................................................Debating whether or not i should put the reddawgg Rap on here......................................................................hmmmm...................
latah i will promise..........................................
so i come to school in a Drew Bledsoe Jersey that would put John Cena himslef to shame... with a chain and combination lock around my neck and shorts down on my knees i was thuggin it crunk style, the day consisted of this.... entry itno school ....... Clay Johnson attempting to steal my bling blings.....little bitch......lol..........chad kumro comparing his chains to mine..... Stares and snickers in my direction..... like i care hahahahah then the gym class and the rap!!!!! Twas one of the best items of poetry ever Coagulated in a 14 minute period, i got soem help from my good buddy John Cena too!...... then Clay Jhonson Ambushing my Bling Blings,,,, he got one damnit then wore it like a trophy.......Health in O's room......Silence......... then Izzy pulls out his wallet and says " no moneyizzle"..... While Twitching, laughter ensues for about 10 minutes... then the day ended.... twas very fun.....

Most proud Athletic Achievement:hmmm oddly enough it was a wrestling match that i lost here's how it goes.... 1-26-03 brandon Comstock moves up two weight classes to pin me in one minute for my last match that year.... so obviously next year i would not let that happen again.... so i lifted my ass off over the summer but did reps.... so i only toned and defined and gave endurance to the muscle i already had... i would not miss the 160 weight class that winter... then wrestling came and i weighed a light 172 pounds, not a good weight for a linemen... i was certified to wrestle 160 safely but that i could not go below 158 pounds for severe risk of internal damage from dehydration and malnutrition so i really cut it close... by the middle of season i weighed 160 had a body fat percentage of 8 percent and a mom who would not get off of my back..." josh your bullimic " Josh your losing too much weight" guess what mom..i wasnt bullimic... i didnt care that you thought that( i mean i did but i knew better) and you know what ? i'd a done it all over again because it was worth it.... that was the very first time that id ever fought through such pain just to get a shot at a nearly impossible goal... it was well worth it.... i know i couldnt do it now lol, now i would be lucky to certify for 171 seeing as how i weigh 195 right now but that was the first time in my life that no one had to push me to do anything i pushed my self and you know what??? i took him to the end of the match ..... this was the GR2nd place finisher, super sectional finalist, and i took him 3 periods long... when he pinned me he was winning 9-4 by points.... that was not a bad improvement in one year, going from getting pinned in one minute by some one 2 weight classes under you to taking them to within nine seconds of the end of the match.... i can honestly say that that was the most cherished memory i will have from high school.... losing a match lol....and nate cromwell's exploding Ear that was a treat... he made me honored to say " yeah i wrestled with that kid"... he never gave up so i guess you could say in a way that he was my idol this season...ill never forget all the struggles and torture you put yourself through not only did you deal with weight but you had an ear that kept rupturing... i honestly wish i could say that i had your resolve and determination...
Lesson learned from this year:.....Hmm sadly Choices are made by other people and as much as it may hurt to see others hurt themselves by making stupid choices.... that's exactly it , it's THEIR choice.... so take care of your own needs cause in the end the only person you really know how to help is yourself and people will only listen to you if they know where your coming from..... that doesnt mean abandon your friends, it just means dont waste your time on showing people the door when they arent even ready to leave....sometimes people just arent ready to break the cycle sometimes you gotta hit rock bottom before you can get up... it's a sad lesson but hey it's ok cause then thigns should get better....






This is my life
Its not what it was before
All these feelings I’ve shared
And these are my dreams
That I’d never lived before
Somebody shake me
Cause I, I must be sleeping

Now that we're here,
It's so far away
All the struggle we fought was in vain
All the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we're here its so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive and I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today

These are my words
That I’ve never said before
I think I’m doing ok
And this is the smile
That I’ve never shown before

Somebody shake me
Cause I, I must be sleeping

Now that we're here,
It's so far away
All the struggle we fought was in vain
All the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we're here its so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive and I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today

I'm so afraid of waking
Please don't shake me
Afraid of waking
Please don't shake me

Now that we're here,
It's so far away
All the struggle we fought was in vain
All the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we're here its so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive and I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today

Holy shit i absolutely love Alterbridge.......................... the band formed by creed minus scott stapp...........::::::RIP:::Creed:::RIP::::: Alterbridge's new single "open your eyes" has hit
103.3 the edge...... and they havent stopped playing it..... and it is a great song...... i really didnt think it possible.... but these guys just may chew out creed.....but fear not..... the best band of all time ( Pearl Jam ) remains solidly in place as my number one favorite band......

ok ummm today........ i took the U.S. history regents test..... i know i blew it away...but how much difference does it make..... i failed the class anyhow..... it just means next year i dont need to take the regents...... ohhh well.... at least i wasnt the only one..... flipper was really glad...
thank you for trying....any hooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.........................

............Alterbridge rocks........

these guys are going to be big........ im going to free up some spots on my football warmup for them..... ohhh yeah.... they are that good.....

"when will they open their eyes,
and realize we are one"

any ways....... over the weekend..... we got a bird.... he is a parakeet.... his name is Rio...... and he hates absolutly hates to be alone.... if you go to pick him up when he's on you he'll start tweeting and he just started biting me right this second..... hmmmmmm seems rio does not want to be put away...... he doesnt bite when hes just sitting on your shoulder but when i reach for him.... wham!!!..... welll..... i do in fact indeed have to teach him some badass pirate tongue......
wow he is really feisty.... he keeps biting the mole on my back......now he is biting me randomly.....they have played alterbridge about 6 times.....in a row..... wow these guys are going to be big......just in my first half hour of having heard them......they have climbed like to one of the top 5 bands of josh....

well the bird has to go back in his cage..... he is one crazy son of a bitch...... hahahahha

Soon he'll be shouting....." arghhh shiver me timbers ahoy"

hahahahahahaha.....and ill be walking around with him on my shoulder dressed up like johnny depp from pirates of the carribean......

That's the new look next year..... you know how this year it was the ghetto thing that reddawgg had perfected???? welll this year it will be the bad ass pirate that josh perfects...... yahahahargh..... call me Bluebeard matey..... yeah im gonna have the hat and the trench coat, and the boots.... and who could forget the psychotic berd that enjoys attacking me...... man i love that little guy..... he is seriously so cute.... and soon he will say "shiver me timbers" watch out...... here comes josh , hes a pirate...... yahahahargh....

See you on the high seas matey......... blue beard out.......

myshipneedsanamemyshipneedsanamemyshipneedsanamemyshipneedsanamemyshipneedsaname

not alterbridge
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If you're gonna jump
Hey you, hang on
If you feel like giving up
Hey you, hang on

I won't forget today
The sun is bright the sky is blue
The pain will go away
In another year or two

If you got a phone
Hey you, call home
If you got a voice
Hey you, rejoice

I won't forget today
The sun is bright the sky is blue
I won't forget to pray
Day is night the world is new
The pain will go away
In another year or two
In a hundred years or two

If you're gonna fly
Hey you, don't cry
You gotta live to die
Hey you, goodbye

I won't forget today
The sun is bright the sky is blue
I won't forget to pray
Day is night the world is new
The pain will go away
In another year or two
In a hundred years or two

Well i havent been online in about a week because my mom still doesnt know what to think of that website thinger....... ohh yeah she saw it...... she was livid..... i say " relax mom i dont care" but ohh well anyways...

Thursday: went to thursday at the square..... to see FUEL!!!! and seven day faith...... Gee whizzz how i love Fuel...... but i officially hate brett scallions...... he is the embodyment of everything that i hate..... he is nothing but a sell out....... when asked what he thought about the creed break-up his response was....." good riddance, i cant stand creed i really hated them but im just glad that they did break up because now i may sell more albums and if that happens i get more money!..... wow brett are you proud that you are a snivelling little weasel?..
ever notice how creed has sold 30 million albums? Human Clay just went platinum 11times.... moron...... nothing would give me more joy than to watch brett scallions get run over on the interstate......i hate brett...........but still love Fuel..... they have nice crunchy guitars, pounding drums and a bassist who can give any song that deep meaning.....( yes i thoroughly believe that a bass guitar gives a song meaning)..... so if Brett Scallions just fell off the face of the earth, i would happily volunteer my voice for Fuel.....Granted as untalented as it may be, we wont sell any albums, but then Fuel would mean more than just..." oh lets make as much money as we can off of our stupid fans..."seriously, when was the last time you heard Brett driving for a cause other than the bottom line??? And they are a cover band..... he writes few of his songs.... god i hate brett scallions.... but on a brighter note i met the one and only Jessica Mc(something or other) not jess or jessie ( she hates them ) but jessica. i first saw her and gawked.... yes i did indeed gawk...
she was walking along fiddling with something in her purse and when she "tried stepping off of the sidewalk she fell, but i caught her lol..... she " broke her ankle in a million places....."so i carried her to the nearest suitable seat place.... needless to say, leonard sawyer who i went to the concert with, saw very little of me,..... i really didnt even pay attention to the concert, we just talked for 2 hours..... and it turned out that she was musically identical in terms of musical taste with me.... except her favorite song wasnt Pearl Jam-jeremy, it was.....Yellowcard-awayaway or somehtign like that..... im like "who are they..... she's like "oh my josh they seriously rock they could kick the crap out of any band..." josh : "ok"

so apparently yellowcard kicks ass...... humph..... i sampled some stuff online..... it's ok.... the violin n such makes me think of the verve and bitter sweer symphony..... now that is a song.....

Friday: Gone to VJ's to tidy up his house for sellin... as i was fixin the roof up i slipped and nearly died... i fell 2 stories..... into a pool.... phew lucky me.... but he made up for it by making me split in half with laughter.......( i actually didnt fall off of the house.... i just thought it was interesting....) and we watched a boring british comedy but it was ok.... because i spent time with the uncle.....


Sunday: Bad blood...... WWE payperview..... sucked ass...... terribly boring.... but i still had fun..... and i went to a bar..... imagine me in a bar =-O....yeah i know..... since when....
dont worry i drank nothing.... and watch out.... apparently some guy named donnie likes the undertaker......Splat!!!!!......

Scool was fun but when home i had to go and bale Fuckin hay!!!!>:O AFTER WEIGHTLIFTING!!!! it was very tiresome.... and the one thought that got me through it was going swimming afterwards..... but no we dont get to go swimming instead we need to go to the
Doctor's appointment......... ARRRRRGGGGHHHH........ and i was covered in chaff from head to toe..... and sweaty as helll......!!!! ewwwww man i hate hay..... i hayte it!!!!

and today....... i failed...... i only hit 225 on the bench...... i wanted to hit 240.... but didnt...... kerny tried to offer me solace in that he got less than me.... but tis no excuse.......
and also i failed U.S. history...... by 2 points..... Fuck...... it doesnt matter because i will still take the regents so i will not dissappoint flip...... seriously please take the regents ( one who will remain anonymous...) filipski has total faith in you and if you let him down...... it would really break him..... please take the regents....... hell i failed too.... im still doing it break the cycle man cmon...it's all up to you... up to you to make something of yourself and not fall away into nothing...... well im out......



Get ready

here it comes.... and it still makes me think......


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I've seen you hanging around
This darkness where I'm bound
And this black hole I've dug for me
And silently within
With hands touching skin
The shock breaks my disease
And I can breathe

And all of your weight
All you dream
Falls on me it falls on me
And your beautiful sky
The light you bring
Falls on me it falls on me

Your faith like the pain
Draws me in again
She washes all my wounds for me
The darkness in my veins
I never could explain
And I wonder if you ever see
Will you still believe?

And all of your weight
All you dream
Falls on me it falls on me
And your beautiful sky
The light you bring
Falls on me it falls on me

Am I that strong
To carry on?
I might change your life
I might save my world
Could you save me?

And all of your weight
All you dream
Falls on me it falls on me
And your beautiful sky
The light you bring
Falls on me it falls on me

And all of your weight
All you dream
Falls on me it falls on me
And your beautiful sky
The light you bring
Falls on me it falls on me

Hmmmmm...... interesting...... seems there is a certain website floating around with my name attached to it....



It is indeed of poor quality...........


it could be Unit102 or shithead21


But I shall dispense an "A" for effort.......


Even though Unit102 made me look like a rugrats guy......





shitty artist.....



I just loved how you made fun of my grandfather...... who is Irish you dumbass...... not jewish......that's my grandmother......





but at the same time....... i am so happy that this guy has an idol or....... something...... it appears as though this guy...... ( whom ill call "unit102") has a glowing admiration for Maddox............ maddox happens to be a rather comical fellow....... he is comical because it is hard to believe that someone like this guy could exist......


Seriously see for yourself............... WWW.Maddox.Xmisson.com .....




It's so hard to believe that this guy hasnt put a bullet through his head..... i mean seriously...... he has the most cynical views on everything...... i mean he hates babies?!?!......Who in the hell hates babies???????



anyways back to Unit102.........his artwork appears to be a cheap rippoff of maddox's random architectural triumphs in the paint program that i have neither the skill or time to master....... Unit102 has found a perfectly passive aggressive way to attack me...... seriously if you want to see for your self go there.. WWW.kehoe.tk ... he really thinks he's funny............. and he may think i dont know who he is but look at my pet name for him.............. unit........102......... yeah im not that stupid....dumb"ace"




nothing really pisses me off .......... this doesnt piss me off ..... it makes me laugh...... because i have done absolutely nothing wrong to "unit102" and am very curious as to where he finds the need to pick on minorities and rip on bullimia and steroid abuse and rip on pearl jam.... who rips on PJ???.................... I am sure that Doctor Drew and Adam Corrola would have a field day with "unit102" ............. which by the way..... loveline is on sunday through thursday 10-12 on 92.9 WBUF..................tune in and Tune out




Unit102 has shown me the balls of a 2 year old seahorse...... the motorskills of a dying catapiller being eaten by a red dog....... and the mental capacity of ..............hmmmmmm nothing really has lower mental capabilities than "unit102"....... but kudos on his picture of my dad...... he really nailed the burnt out stoner look perfectly...... wonder if he has some experience in that department......



.. . . . . .. . . . .. . . .. . L I T T L E P O P C O R N F A R T. . . . .. . . . . .. .

I SUGGEST THAT YOU GET YOUR LABS IN BITCH ; D


I think we all know who it is...... but i will be gay and passive aggresive...... and not tell you........ hmmmmm nothing of that magnitude is easy..... wonder if you've ever even dared thinking about doing it.......


but then again i could ignore the obvious ploy to "fool" me and think it's Mike S. and .........matt crandall...... or........??? Calvin Miller???


but this could all be a clever plot to confuse me..... hmmmmm... how gay that someone would actually spend their time doing somehting like that......yeah it actually does piss me off..... and if i find out if it was infact unit102.... i shall dispense of him with a well placed nose breaking somethingerother...... or will I???




now for some pressing and interesting issues..... Creed broke up......:'(................. i love creed....and miss them already........ i eagerly await The Tea Party featuring Scott Stapp
and the band Alterbridge..... which arrives sooooooooooon....... www.alterbridge.com



yeah but my head is wrapped around unit102 and his random and Characteristic displays of anger..... who is it directed at???? daddy??? beat you???
happened to me too...... one day he threw me down the stairs " because i wasnt going fast enough" threw me down the stairs...... i chipped my elbow...... hey i can still forgive him......
Even though he was drunk..... and that's still no excuse..... but.... is it at your mom...... did she not help you with your homework or bitch at you for pissing about your computer???...........
my mom couldnt help me with my homework once i hit the 6th grade..... because she dropprd out in the 11th.... but remebered so little from smoking here brains out..... and we just got the computer last january......it dont matter..... i still love her because she tries so hard to be the best mom...... dad just mails a check.........




wow..... when was the last time i ever did anything stupid like this.....----> www.kehoe.tk ???
I mean i am not a smart person.... i jump off/out of, in/on to, through and at stuff..... seriously...... today in lifting i dropped the powerclean bar because i was being a dumbass and tried to over-head press 155 four times....... i almost killed ben groth...... Sorry :(.........
but seriously...... as far as im concerned.... i had a shitty hand dealt to me in life..... but i played it.......or am in the process of playing i dont know and dont really care because it is an analogy and life is not a game of cards......it all depends on how you look at the glass...... half full or half empty???



welll honestly i see the glass as half full and then i look for a faucet.... but what do i know???............. i am a screw balllll......... well im out to listen to loveline bitches......... peace....... hey i think i might be a good social worker.........


Imitation is flattery and suicide............ R.I.P. Creed...... long live Pearl Jam.....




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if someone else showed you the way
would you take the wheel and steer?
it hurts me that you're not ashamed
of what you're doing here
if they jumped off a bridge
would you meet them on the ground?
or would you try and claim
that it never made a sound








everyone plays the hand they're dealt
and learns to walk through life themselves
not everything in life is handed on a plate
when people think your words are true
it doesn't matter what you do
i sold my soul to get here
how About you?







so you choose to force your hand
what a strange way to make friends
and you always change the rules
so the drama never ends
and you blindly go through life
judging only by its worth
just try not to forget
that the meek inherit earth








everyone plays the hand they're dealt
and learns to walk through life themselves
not everything in life is handed on a plate
when people think your words are true
it doesn't matter what you do
i sold my soul to get here
how About you?








so please don't take offense
this is just a point of view
cause i'm the only one who
will say these things to you






everyone plays the hand they're dealt
and learns to walk through life themselves
not everything in life is handed on a plate
when people think your words are true
it doesn't matter what you do
i sold my soul to get here
how About you?




P.S............... IF YOU FEEL THE NEED TO CONTACT ME...... THERE'S A FRIGGIN TOOL RIGHT AT YOUR RIGHT...... CLICK IT..... YOU NEED NO E-MAIL ADDRESS IN ORDER TO SEND ME EMAILS.......OHHH OK UNIT102....... LOOK AT YOUR KEYBOARD..... SEE THE ENTER BUTTON.... THAT IS YOUR RIGHT SIDE...... NOW HOLD UP YOUR RIGHT HAND TO THE COMPUTER SCREEN AND COMPARE IT WITH YOUR LEFT HAND ON THE SCREEN........ THE CONTACT ME BUTTON SHOULD BE RIGHT NEXT TO YOUR RIGHT HAND...... .................. HEY WHAT DO YOU KNOW..... IT'S MY NAME!!!!!! .............
............MAYBE I SHOULD TAKE OFF THE CAPS LOCK

  Well this weekend was quite fun....... i bitched at someone in a movie theatre.....i went fishing...... made couple hundred mowing lawns for my new apparent place of work.....

we went to go see the movie known as "the Day after Tommorrow".....good movie....aside from an asshole who thought he was cool in the back row....

Guy on Screen: if we dont evacuate from here to here, everyone dies....
Retard in the back row: GAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!
Angry Josh: Hey Jack-ass....everyone is trying to watch a goddamn movie not your gay little show for attention..... your not cool....

well i am glad to report that i didnt get struck by lightning....

and i am also glad to say that my goat is alive and well....yeah thats right Katlynn, shes not dog-food.....you actually had me worried she might be dog food..... i went to see her at the guy's farm we sold her to.... she has gotten HUGE!!!!! as i was looking around, for her i saw a goat about 300 pounds and overlooked her......she didnt overlook me.....our former goat had charged me and knocked

me flat on my ass..... what a bump.... she gained about 100 pounds since we sold her.....so yeah she's big...big goat.....BAHAHAHAHHA

Matt stein came to weightlifting too..... yeah he is really skinny and weak but ill fix that.... wow i should really start charging for my services.... Odie's lost 20 pounds in the last 5 weeks of working with me and i bet stein will be working out with his body weight by the end of the year........ and odie did a dip.... a complete unassisted dip..... on his own.... i applauded him because he used to not even do them on the dip trainer..... so i guess i am a good personal trainer..... and there are some jealous and malevalent individuals as well..... just guess who???????/??

And some incredible news.... Filipski will let my final project be on one of my favorite bands..... Pearl Jam.....................and the song.............. Jeremy.... yeah just noise....old man hahahahaha...... and he will even see the un-censored video........ yeah im bound to get an A and pass my ass out of that class.....

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I will light the match this mornin',

so I won't be alone
Watch as she lies silent,

for soon night will be gone
Oh, I will stand arms outstretched,

pretend I'm free to roam
Oh, I will make my way,

through, one more day in Hell...
How much difference does it make
How much difference does it make, yeah...

I will hold the candle,

till it burns up my arm
Oh, I'll keep takin' punches,

until their will grows tired
Oh, I will stare the sun down,

until my eyes go blind
Hey, I won't change direction,

and I won't change my mind
How much difference does it make
Mmm, how much difference does it make...how much difference...

I'll swallow poison,

until I grow immune
I will scream my lungs out,

till it fills this room

How much difference

How much difference does it make

How much difference

How much difference does it make

Been hearing there's a big storm comin.................... if i dont come to school tommorow and if you hear about someone being struck by lightning...... it was prolly me considering as how i love just being outside in thunderstorms...... and......singing and.....dancing....and just watching and listening to the lightning...... in the middle of the fields..... yeah im not bright..... but what are my chances of being struck by lightning???so..... see you all tommorow hopefully...........

This weekend started with a bang.... but not right away..... friday night i went to see my little niece... evie lynn jane.....then i went to bed....after going home of course...then

I mowed our pond behind our house to make it look nice (because if it doesnt look nice there is no use in having it)  from the first thing in the morning untill.........while mowing inside of the pine trees.............. one of the most terrible things that could happen to someone happened.... those with squeeeemish tendencies should stop reading untill it says safe..... a pine cone which i believe was possesed by the devil himself was shot out of the back of my lawn mower right into my crotch.... right in the pills.... yeah it was real bad and felt like one of them had immidiatly exploded and then turned into a knife into the other one.... You should see this pine cone.... it looks satanic..... any ways i was on the ground in terrible agony...... I crawled home barely able to move.... ohh the agony.... ice was no comfort.....movement was such relentless dispair......laughing and coughing......ohhh and dont forget sneezing...... i sure as hell wont... well i talked to graff who was bitching about going to the circus and making me laugh and cry at the same time. yeah you jackass im glad you didnt get to see the god foresaken monkey riding the unicycle .......................................Dick..................................

well i woke up the next morning with a slight discomfort.... ok i was milking it..... just a little ..... but they my future children come from there so i can never be too carefull..........
SAFE YOU SISSY!!!

Then sunday my aunt karen came over.... with her compliment of kids..... hahaha my mom was happy cause she got to discuss "Life issues" with aunt karen while the kids abused me...... hahahah anna and "E" are fun to babysit..... but they are also merciless..... and almost forgot... last night i heard a song by ..............Fuel........ havent heard it in a long time.......and didnt know who did it but now i do...... so now i am happy!!!

Fuel - Hemhorage Fuel - Hemhorage Fuel - Hemhorage Fuel - Hemhorage Fuel - Hemhorage

Memories are just where you laid them
Drag the waters ’till the depths give up their dead
What did you expect to find?
Was there something you left behind?
Don’t you remember anything I said when I said

Don’t fall away, and leave me to myself
Don’t fall away and leave life bleed on
In my hands, in my hands again
Leave life bleeding
In my hands, in my hands
Life lies bleeding

Oh hold me now I feel contagious
Am I the only place that you’ve left to go
She cries her life is like
Some movie black and white
Dead actors faking lines
Over and over and over again she cries

Don’t fall away, and leave me to myself
Dont fall away, and leave life bleed on
In my hands, in my hands again
Leave life bleeding
In my hands, in my hands
Life lies bleeding

And I wanted
You turned away
You don’t remember, but I do
You never even tried

Don’t fall away and leave me to myself
Don’t fall away and leave life bleeding
In my hands, in my hands again
Leave life bleed on
In my hands, in my hands
Life lies bleeding